A newly published diary from the late Dutch writer and artist Jan Wolkers offers a glimpse into his life in 1968, revealing intimate details and controversial moments. The diary, part of a series published by De Bezige Bij, covers a pivotal year marked by both personal experiences and significant world events.

Wolkers’ diary entries capture his attention to the small, peaceful moments in life, such as observing nature and spending time with his girlfriend Karina. However, the diary also reveals Wolkers’ intense sexuality and unconventional relationships.

The diary recounts his literary pursuits, including the early stages of his successful novel “Turkish Delight,” and his interactions with other figures in the Amsterdam literary scene. The entries also provide a snapshot of Wolkers’ involvement in the political and social issues of the time, such as the Vietnam War and student revolts.

Wolkers’ diary entries also detail sexual encounters, including threesomes, and instances of him losing his temper with Karina. This raises questions about the impact of his behavior on those around him.

The diary’s telegram-like style suggests that it was intended for personal reflection rather than public consumption. Wolkers himself expressed concern about how Karina would perceive his diaries after his death, hinting at the potential for discomfort and judgment.

The publication of this diary prompts reflection on the nature of diaries as personal testaments and the ethical considerations of sharing such intimate details with the public. While offering a fascinating glimpse into the life of a celebrated writer, it also raises questions about the complexities of relationships and the potential consequences of one’s actions.